Procrastination should have been my middle name!

Procrastinator. Funny word with an ugly meaning that I jokingly refer to myself as on a daily basis, but I seriously need to do something about.
I am a procrastinator. In the worst way. My whole life is one giant procrastination and it is time for that to stop. I am done. I am done watching everyone I know live their lives and get things done while I sit around and start things then put them off for a later date and have nothing to show for my 29 years of life except two beautiful kids that, if I had planned would probably still not yet be born due to my procrastination.
How is it that I am 29 years old and back to working a restaurant job that I hate making $9.10 an hour? Procrastination.
How is it that I never made that short film I had scripted and basically had support from many people to help me make? Procrastination.
How is it that I have never travelled farther that North America when one of my main goals in life was to travel the world? Procrastination!
I blamed having my son for not finishing college but really it was my own putting it off. I could have easily found the time in my sad existence to take a class here and there for the past 9 years and received a degree.
I could easily be at the weight I want to be at , but I keep putting off going to the gym and eating healthy for tomorrow.
Why is it so easy to do this? Is it habit? Is it that I truly don't want to be happy?
There are about 100 books I want to read, probably more, but I just don't have the time. Yet I have the time to watch a 4 hour mini-series about pointless nonsense starring Sarah Chalke in one afternoon!
Seriously, I have to stop. I have to get motivated. The time is now. No more procrastination.
Starting now I will try to get stuff done. I will finally clean and organize my house to my liking. I will take my kids to the park on sunny afternoons. I will go to the gym that i pay $37 a month for and never ever use.
Every day I will write in my blog. I will post what I actually did for the day. Oh I hope I do this.
I can't sit back and wonder "what if" anymore. I need to just do. I hope I am finally motivated. I think it will be vary hard, but I am ready. I can do it. I need to just suck it up and take it one day at a time. Even if I don't want to . I have to . I have to finally live my life.